"One day at a time--this is enough. Do not look back and grieve over the past for it is gone; and do not be troubled about the future, for it has not yet come. Live in the present, and make it so beautiful it will be worth remembering."

Ida Scott Taylor

Sunday, May 11, 2014

The Bittersweetness of this Day

It's bad when you've been so behind
 in putting up new posts on 
your blog that you re-post one
 you've already posted and written before.
I hope you will forgive me,
 but this post 
is in honor of my mother on Mother's Day.

And to all of you women who find Mother's Day  to 
be sad or bittersweet because you have lost your mother,
or maybe wished you had known them better or in a different way, etc...
I want you to know you are not alone. 
I understand and here is a heart hug from me. 
You may also find comfort in this special post that 
Lisa Jo Baker has penned on Lysa Terkeurst blog.
(just click on the title link in pink below)

It certainly touched me!


here is my original post from May 2013
A Beautiful HEART
(in honor of my mother)

I hope all of you mother's out there have a
very special Mother's Day tomorrow.

Mother's Day has always been a
bittersweet day for me in some 

I love being a mother
 to our beautiful inside and out
daughters, Jessica and Jaymie, who are 
now adult mothers themselves.
What a blessing God bestowed upon me to be given the 
blessing of being their momma.

They live states away from us now, 
so although I won't 
get to hug them in person and spend time 
with them tomorrow, they are forever
 a part of my HEART
 and I'm sending them my  hugs and kisses.

My own mother passed away 19 years ago,
 the day after my 39th birthday.

-my mother and father holding little ole' me-

My mother had the most beautiful smile
 and a kind heart.
When I was a little bitty girl, she would sing 
and do little dance moves as 
she cleaned the house. 
 I do remember how this would
 make me giggle
 and would put a smile in my heart.
I knew she loved me.

But in her mid-twenties, she developed a
mental illness disorder that changed 
her life in many ways.
I tear up now just thinking about the pain she endured
 and how the illness 
took her farther away from us.

 Doctors know so much more about this illness now
 and how to treat it, 
much more than they knew back then.
Families had very little knowledge
 and support on how
 to live with and  help their loved one through
 this illness at that time. 

mom and me (1957)

On Mother's Day especially, 
I always think
about the special things I remember about my mom, but
also wish I could have known her more 
on a deeper mother/daughter level
that the illness masked from
all it could have been.
I'm so thankful for the time I did have
and for the times over the years
where the illness mask would
come down for a time
and her beautiful HEART 
would always shine through.

One day I will see her again in heaven
as the momma I remember, 
singing and dancing as she made me giggle.

Me, my 2 sisters and brother.
I'm the oldest in the back
with the too tight of a curly home permanent
my grandma gave me!

I don't know your mother story,
but I do know this....
whatever it is, be it wonderful, strained
or fair...that God can take
it, yes...all of it, and teach you good things
that will make you a better mother yourself. 
 He will use your life experiences,
 ( the good and  painful)
 to make you the person you are, the one
you want to be, when
you choose to allow him to help you.
I couldn't do it without him.

Love and Hugs,

Sunday, February 23, 2014

Far Better Things Ahead Than What I Leave Behind

Well, this 2014 word I've chosen to work on this
year, as I told you in my last post, 
 is the word Release.
I'm hoping as you read my post and
future posts that
you too will find a cord of hope 
that will help you release things that
might be also holding you back 
from receiving the best 
that God has planned for you ahead.

Today I want to start with a biggie
myth that has tripped me up with it's lie
way too many times.

The Myth of the guaranteed right choice!

I like guarantees that I can count on.
I probably drive some sales people crazy
with all of the  questions I ask when
I'm trying to make sure I don't end up with
a mistake choice in purchasing something.
I'm sure you are like that also when it 
comes to big purchases
and it's 
the responsible way to be.
But in this path we take called
daily life,
we cannot tie it all up in a pretty bow
like we would a purchase.
Sometimes things happen that we 
didn't count on and that disappoint us
and they totally change our dreams and plans.
Then fear can set in
and cripple us from making 
new plans and having new dreams.

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I've been reading a great book by
Here is a passage from her book that really
spoke to me:
"Hidden behind most of our regrets is the myth of the guaranteed right choice - as though if we'd only done it right, the path would have been smooth.  There is a yellow-brick road, we think, and our job from birth is to find it."
"The search for guarantees can leave you cautious and tentative about nearly everything - always fearful that your next choice will prove (yet again) to be some kind of mistake you regret."
"I want to suggest that it's just these places in your experience where dreams and expectations don't work out - that you are being issued the invitation of your life.  Disappointment is, strangely enough, a doorway to the real adventure. It's the point where you start to leave behind most of your notions of how your story should read - and enter your relationship with God as a journey. A true journey, one that's wild and adventurous and not anywhere close to predictable."
Paul Rinehart..
.book Better Than Your Dreams

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 So this myth,
The Myth of the guaranteed right choice

is one of those things you and I 
need to release
 so we can move forward to
 better things ahead.
It will probably be a work in progress
in letting it go completely,
but God promises
 freedom, peace and adventure
along the way as we do.

I LOVE this song by J.J. Heller...
Listen and be hopeful..
oh and sing it at the top of your lungs
with me..  (it's one of those kind of songs!!)


Saturday, February 1, 2014

"Release" and Move On in 2014

Finally figured out my
WORD to live by for 2014.
I didn't really want to use this word.
I continued to ignore the thoughts of it.
Just didn't feel like a pretty word..ya know?
But this theme kept showing up
and I realized it really is
something I need to pay attention to
and take care of. 

to set free

All so I can move on and

receive the BEST that God has

planned for me.

Are you anything like me and

in your mind sometimes

find that you

 re-hash and scold yourself  

over some past failures or mistakes?

(even if they happened years ago)

(even if to others, they aren't even considered mistakes)

Do you sometimes play 

the "woulda, coudla, shoulda" game

over and again in your head?

If so, I hope you will join me 

this year on my blog as I 

share how God is helping me

to Release

 this kind of thinking, 

and hopefully it will help you 

also to do the same.

It will be a work in progress,

but I already feel lighter.

As if  a burden

has been lifted off of me,

since releasing some of this

junky-stinkin' thinkin!


I am excited to share this journey

with Y♥U....

and hope it will be an

encouragement in your life also.

"When God created you, he knew exactly

what He was looking for..

YOU are what He came up with."

Brian Houston

Hugs to you all,