GETTING DOWN TO THE ROOT OF THINGS

I am here again today to tell you what I have

learned after 3 weeks of reading 

Beth Moore's 

book called So Long Insecurity.

First of all I want to make sure and tell YOU

how much all of your comments

  have meant to me while doing this study.

At first when I started

sharing my vulnerable thoughts on this subject

through art journaling and letting you

all  see, I was reluctant! (for a second or two)

But then I decided if even one other person

is helped by me putting my real self out there,

then....  IT IS WORTH IT ALL.

Thank you my sweet friends!

This was a difficult one to get through because 

it brought up a lot of old baggage that

I dealt with and put behind me years ago.  Who 

wants to relive that depressing stuff? The thing is, 

I think even old stuff we've taken care of

and moved on from

needs revisited or given a quick check-up

now and again

just to make sure our roots haven't 

attached themselves to some old crabgrass that 

has disguised itself as a root of grass.

  

This is a view of my neighbor's shed window.

Everything I am saying here is from Beth's words. I've

just paraphrased them a little.

The fearful lie that no one will

take care of us 
can become rooted in even a child

if they've been the victim of any kind of abuse.

(emotional, mental, physical, verbal, or sexual)

It not only causes immediate effects, it also goes

straight to the core of our belief system and

seems as bad as our worst nightmare.

I'm on my own!  No one will take care of me.

The earlier this lie is confirmed, the louder it speaks.

The sense of being unprotected can destroy 

personal boundaries and mess

up our emotions big-time!  Trying to find another

soul-mate, friend etc.. who will

take care of us and not disappoint

is impossible.  No human 

relationship can handle that much pressure!

On my art journal page above, you will see Jesus 

hands touching the sides of my cheeks. Many times

when I am talking to Him I imagine 

my Heavenly Father warmly taking my 

face in His hands, and saying

I LOVE YOU LEE ANN.

This always brings me to tears as I thank

HIM for the comfort, love, joy, peace and security that

He alone has given me so fully.

My friend, if you struggle with this fear, please

know that no human being can fill 

that void and ache in your soul.  I hope you

will give it up today and let God

fill it as only He can and wants to do for YOU.

I know this post is long, but I want to end with
these quoted words from Beth Moore:

"If you've lived your life
looking for someone to take care of you

but always end up
taking care of everyone else,

your search is OVER. 

GOD has what you need, 

and
you'll  NEVER  wear Him out."

Hugs to you all,